Dr. H’s five year check in

So, back in December I posted about kicking my rear back into gear and losing about 25% of my weight before the five year Biggest Loser check up with Dr. Huizenga last weekend.  I started off strong, lost about 12% of my starting weight and then hit retreat and conference season (three retreats/trips and a conference in the space of about eight weeks), which really threw me off.  I regained a bunch of what I lost (ARGH), and then really kicked it back into gear in April with counting calories and exercise, ending up with about a 10% loss when I saw Dr. H last weekend.  Not where I wanted to be, but headed in the right direction.

I’m really glad I went (and thankful to Heather for making me go!). I had a great conversation with Dr. H at his office; he wanted to know what happened – he was intrigued that I had stayed on track for several years, led weight loss groups, done a lot of writing, etc., and then nose dived so to speak.  He told me what he’s told every other former contestant that has put weight back on – get back on the horse.

So I’m continuing with the plan.  Counting calories (around 2000 a day), and exercising.  Before going to CA last weekend I was trying to do two workouts a day like I did five years ago, which really is a schedule killer.  Dr. H told me to switch to one 90 minute workout, which really does make a huge difference.

The real benefit in the trip was coming clean and seeing everyone else.  It was really empowering to get together with a hundred other former contestants and see that I’m not the only one struggling still – I’m not even in a minority.  Part of my failure cycle is the fear of judgement, of being the only one, etc., which meant I hadn’t put a current photo of myself on the blog or Facebook in a couple years.  I definitely came back from LA encouraged and optimistic; I know I can lose weight, but now I feel a different level of support and empowerment in coming clean with Dr. H and the others and not feeling kicked out of the club.  And I have a different perspective on hiding my weight struggles – I think I did more harm than good by trying to convey the message that I had conquered all my body image demons and emotional eating addictions.  It’s a lifelong battle, but the difference between me now and my pre-Biggest Loser self is that back then I thought there was no hope, and now I know I have the tools to get back on the horse and get to where I need to be.

 

2 thoughts on “Dr. H’s five year check in

  1. I know how hard it is to put a picture out there or even blog about weight loss when you've been backsliding or struggling. Thanks for posting even in your struggles. It helps to know that others are going through similar things and helps remind me that I need to get back on the horse. You ROCK!

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